I've only been a mom for 3 1/2 years now and I'm learning every day. I have more questions than answers and so many concerns that it's a wonder I sleep at night. I hope I'm not the only mom who constantly wonders, "Have I screwed my kid up permanently?"
One thing that I do know about myself, though, is that I have an unconditional love for my child and I knew I would long before she was born. So how is it that there are soooo many mothers out there that don't deserve the title? I cant comprehend leaving someone else to do your most important job of your life. My mom was one of those who couldn't handle the job. Yet, she went on to mother many other children who's stories I don't know. I have since made attempts to get to know her and she has done the same.
This isn't bad news for me though. I learned from her and I hope that other people who share situations like mine realize that they can make the best of it all. I know what kind of mother I want to be now and more importantly, the mother I don't want to be. Shes not my only influence too.I have a dad who has raised me and given me alot of good values. Hes perfectly imperfect and I think he did a great job. I also have two wonderful aunts who have showed me what real love and mothering is like. They are both vastly different but the same in their involvement with their family. I look up to them so much.
The real reason I'm posting this is because I cant believe the disrespect that I see in kids anymore. I would hope that if a kid has lots of love and support in their lives, they would show respect. Is it the kids fault? Or is it the parents? I have alot of kids in my family that Id like to get through to...but its not my job. More importantly, what do I do to teach Hannah that we never mistreat people and we do whatever we can to help our family? This is something I struggle with and I think its important to tackle it now but like I said, I barely know what I'm doing!
