If you're happy and you know it...

Being separated from Hannah's dad creates alot of parenting challenges for me. Things have improved as we all learn to keep a healthy balance but one thing I think about is whether she is happier with me or her dad. It may seem petty and juvenile but I cant help but feel competitive with her dad. I mean, is it so bad that I want her to looooove being with mom the most!? 

This past weekend, Hannah found one of her dad's old shirts at my house when we were cleaning. It must've struck an emotional chord with her because she got teary eyed and instantly wanted to call him. So of course, we called him but he didn't answer. Well this just about broke her heart. She just held me and cried. When he finally called back, she was happy to talk to him but it was obvious she just wanted to be with him. 

This brought up these questions, Does she do the same thing with him when I'm not there? Does she miss me at all? Is she truly happy with me?

Michael and I make a huge effort to always play with Hannah and go out into the world and try new and fun things. It seems that when Hannah is with her dad, they just stay home and do day to day tasks. So I have trouble understanding what it is about being with him that she yearns for so much. Maybe its just a father, daughter bond that I wont be able to match. I do remember always loving spending time with my dad as much as I could. 

In conclusion, maybe I will have a son next and he will prefer me since they tend to be mamas boys......

Just joking.